First Day on the Slim Fast Diet

So yesterday, I was a bit agitated and it was kind of like a "that's it, now this is happening" day lol. Really though, I've embarked on weight loss plans before, and I've never had this much of a problem, so it has been unusually frustrating.

Today, I am really tired because I had been drinking insane amounts of coffee again over the past few weeks (oh yes, heart palpitations and all), and today I woke up and just said eh, no coffee today. I didn't even think about it until I was at the supermarket with my son and I was ready to start attacking people lol, and on the way home I was thinking gee, why am I so irritable today? So I had a green tea and...nah, still pretty out of it lol. I think I'll sleep pretty well tonight.

Well anyway, I saw the price on the Slim Fast powder and it was something like $7.99 and then I saw the CareOne brand Slim Supreme next to it for $4.99 (pretty much the same stuff; doesn't taste quite the same), so that's what I got. Usually I have coupons for Slim Fast that I find on Ebay or somewhere, but obviously there wasn't enough notice for that. I think I'm off to a good start though. I notice it does keep me full between meals, which is great!

I found this on Facebook; it's something I really need to keep in mind (eh...sorry for those who don't like the wording so much):

It's great and everything to approach the different aspects of weight loss such as mental preparation, diet, etc. but without self-discipline playing a part in all that, it's worthless. Well, except for meditation; I should be doing that regularly anyway, with all this stress, and I keep using the excuse that I never have any time, and using that excuse for everything is what puts me in this frustrating situation. If I can't make time to take care of myself, then I should welcome the impending heart attack that is going to kill me as a result, and then I won't get anything done because I'll be DEAD. Simple as that. Tough love (but oh, so necessary).

Well, now that I am getting back on my feet here, I will check in shortly with how things are going. :)

Effective Immediately: Slim Fast Diet

Things are out of control. It's time to admit it. The way I have set this up is not working for me, and I think it is because everything else that's going on right now is just chaotic. The stress from work is getting to me, the stress from school and maintaining the household is getting to me. Lately I have been looking in the mirror and thinking omg, I'm going to be this way forever. I've had my chance, and it's gone.

So as I sit awake when I have to be up for school early tomorrow morning but can't sleep because my heart is pounding after eating high-sodium junk food for dinner, I'm thinking I need to somehow regain control of this situation. Control starts with self-discipline and will power, which is exactly what I am lacking. So, the last time I was able to efficiently take control of my eating habits was the day I started the Slim Fast Diet.

Extreme? Maybe. I know a lot of people don't agree with it. I've heard it referred to as a "starvation diet". And yes, expensive. But I have no sense of portion control, and no sense of portion control turns into "who cares?" I can drive down the street between errands and come up with an excuse to eat garbage for lunch. Not with a Slim Fast in the car. Discipline.

Once I have regained control, I will switch to 3 healthy meals a day.

Removing Weight-Loss Obstacles

So it looks like the last blog I posted was on 1/28, and that's a pretty long time not to check in with how things are going....that would be because they aren't going so well. Everything was great; I was exercising every day and using the My Fitness Pal web site each day. When I exercised, it was in the morning, right after I put my son on the bus. I got into a great routine where I did this each and every morning, and I was excited about it, too.

Then one morning, I was particularly tired, and I decided I would wait until I got home from work in the afternoon to do it, which was fine. I waited until I got home, and then I did it. I did the same thing the next day; waited till I got home. Then the next morning, I said I was going to do the same thing, and the afternoon came and I didn't do it. Same thing the next day, then the next day, until I didn't even think about it in the morning. The elliptical machine takes up half my living room, and I just didn't think about it!!

One major problem I am having is my stress level, which has been through the roof lately. It wears me down. I have never been so tired in all my life; that is, until I started working as a paralegal. I think about my job all the time; in fact, it has kept me awake many nights. School is reeeeaally playing into this tremendous pressure on me as well. However, I am very well aware that working out actually helps with all this! It's just that I always have the feeling that I don't have enough time. Once I graduate in May, I will feel so much more free to focus on one thing at a time, but until then, I absolutely must find a way to make this work.

I have come to realize that I do not like the feeling of using the machine on the second level of this house with people living underneath me. Interestingly, though, they have never complained or even mentioned hearing any noise from it, but while using it, I am constantly thinking "omg what if they hear me!?" Grrr, they can't hear me!!

Also, I need to determine what time of day I plan to use this so I don't fall into this again. If I do it first thing in the morning, I am often exhausted by around 6:00, which is not good on the day I have classes. If I choose to wait until the afternoon, that needs to be my regular plan, but that's when the guy downstairs comes home, and what if he hears me!!?

Has anyone else completely dropped the ball to this extent and found a way back on their feet without becoming utterly discouraged?? :(